@hendrixquotez: i’m so lost.. i don’t know what to do how to feel where to start.. nothing. i want him and only him. thinking i’m a ho and shi thinking i been doing stuff with other people just cus he has. it’s annoying cus you don’t see me for who i am he see me for who he is and that’s the hurting part about. why can’t we work on us like he worked on others. i want something real with him he my baby boy. but if that’s not in his favor, i will leave. i will try to continue life without him and focus on myself. and that’s if i can. i’m not the strongest person in the world when it comes to my feelings. my heart is in my ass at the tip rn it hurts it’s pounding hard. i want it to stop but im so broken ts wont stop. why can’t we be together and confine in one another. build our trust back up for one another. learn each other love languages. learn what upsets one another. learn to give grace and respect our relationship and bond. i will never blame him because i chose to stay and deal with it. i’ve always said that. i will never play victim i’m not i’ve been admitted to my wrongs and he just think im still out doing “wrong” STILL and the thing is he can do him but when i do me im lying im this im that. so idk what anyone want me to do anymore. i keep hurting and idk how much longer im gonna continue to hurt. so. yeah. i’m gonna try my hardest to continue myself to be better for my own good. i just love that boy so much im willing to work on us like adults that we are i’m willing to put stuff behind us only if it’s gonna be a stepping stone into our relationship. i want it to be us so bad. but only time can tell. i’m not wanted im not someone he see himself with im not someone he’ll turn his head for im not someone that he benefit off of im not worthy enough for his love im not capable of showing him happiness cus all i ever caused was ruckus and chaos and being a burden on him. if my time has expired with him i just want him to know i will never stop loving him cus he’s been a big part of my life in such little time. i love him dearly but if it’s expired i pray God gives him everything and more that he pray for and dream about doing for himself.
