izic :
asu final act of love, maybe not to you, but to myself, I will remember you as a mind man.
when notifications of your words filling my heart in the morning, making my day nice despite be never saying it.
I will remember that you loved me deeply and truly in the beginning. I will remember that you did love me, but I'll remember that I was the reason that the love was slowly turned cold, that love was slowly fading after I hurt you multiple times.
sometimes I want to show you I am still the same from the beginning, but I don't remember the beginning, I haven't remembered as much as I wish I could.
I will miss you, I will think about you when I'm laying down and thinking about how badly I've hurt you, how despite knowing I could've fix it that I didn't.
I don't know if I was difficult to love, I believe that I am because I burn bridges before letting the person I love ever cross them because I am scared of you seeing that the grass wasn't greener on the other side, that it was a cold winter where I sat frozen and covered in layers that no one had ever pulled away to see what I really was.
so, despite it all, I will continue to love you because you'll never fade from my memory, I'll remember things that I couldn't at the moment.
2026-11-06 13:19:45