@the.rgf.club: Grief is exhausting. It takes a physical toll on your body. I’m three years into this journey, and it still feels heavy. I know that grief is something I’ll carry with me for the rest of my life. I read a quote once that said ‘grief is love with no place to go’ ….and I feel that. Losing my 11 year old daughter to cancer isn’t just something my body will get over. I will love her forever….and therefore I will grieve her forever. I’m now starting to learn how to carry the grief better while making room for the joy too. The mother that I was before I lost my oldest daughter is very different than the mother I am now. I used to plan playdates and sleepovers all the time. It’s now hard sometimes to find the energy to do those things for my other children. I feel terrible about that. Finding joy and appreciating the little things in life is something I work on everyday. Recently, when my kids were having flashlight fun with friends, it filled my heart with so much joy. I know grief and joy can co-exist and I’m working to find my new balance. My kids deserve that. I deserve that. #griefjourney #childloss #childhoodmemories #cancersucks
