@adventures_of_annie1: I’ve had this video sitting in my drafts for almost two years. A part of my life that was so beautiful, but also the most terrifying experience I’ve ever been through. 🤍 Bringing my baby into the world and then watching her fight for her life in NICU, when we came so close to losing her, left a part of me carrying a trauma I didn’t fully know how to process. For a long time, I wasn’t ready to share this. And honestly, I think a part of me was still trying to make sense of it all. Now, with less than a week until I welcome my second baby, I find myself reflecting on just how far I’ve come. The fear, the anxiety, the memories and the what-ifs are still there. Because when you’ve been through something so traumatic, it’s hard not to carry that fear into the unknown again. But I’m learning that it’s okay to be scared. It’s okay to feel anxious about giving birth again. It’s okay to acknowledge that your first experience hurt you, even if you’re excited for what’s to come. Trauma doesn’t disappear just because time has passed, and healing doesn’t mean you have to stop being afraid. Sometimes healing is choosing to face something that once broke a part of you, with the hope that this time can hold a different story. As I prepare to give birth again, I’m reminding myself that this is a new pregnancy, a new birth and a new chapter. I can honour what happened to Annie, and us, without living in the fear that it will happen again. I can be scared and still be brave. I can carry my past with me without letting it steal the joy of what’s ahead. And perhaps, in some small way, this next birth will give me the chance to heal a part of myself that has been hurting for a very long time. If you’ve experienced a traumatic birth, a NICU journey or the fear of losing your baby, please know you’re not alone. You’re allowed to need time to heal. You’re allowed to feel excited and terrified at the same time. And you don’t have to feel completely fearless to face birth again. I really couldn’t be prouder of the clever, kind, caring and happy little girl Annie has grown into these last 3 years. You really wouldn’t believe the rough start she had and what she’s overcome 🥹💖 Here’s to new chapters, softer hearts and finding courage in places we never thought we’d need it. 🤍 #nicubaby #babytok #birthstory #momtok #fyp

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