@thirtysomethingreset: I think about the old version of me every single day. Sometimes with sadness, but sometimes, quite strangely, with envy. I feel sad for her because I remember how unhappy she was, how much she struggled with herself and how little she realised just how much life she was missing out on. But I also envy parts of her. The version of me who was quite content staying indoors, having a quiet life and just plodding along without feeling like every single day had to be productive, active or purposeful. Because the truth is, losing the weight didn’t automatically give me the freedom I thought it would. In some ways, it gave me a whole new set of pressures. Now I put so much pressure on myself to maintain this lifestyle, to keep moving, to make the right choices, to never slip back into old habits. And sometimes that pressure is exhausting. There’s this constant underlying fear of returning to the person I used to be, both physically and mentally. You spend so long believing that once you lose the weight, everything will fall into place. That you’ll finally be happy, confident and free. But nobody really talks about the mental side of it. The fear, the pressure, the obsession with not going backwards. I’m so grateful for the life I’ve built and I wouldn’t undo my journey for anything. But I’m also learning that I don’t want to spend the rest of my life being scared of becoming the person I once was. I lost the weight to get my life back. I don’t want to spend the rest of it feeling like I have to earn the right to enjoy it. 🤍 #girlhood #becomingher #stillgoing #transformation #healing

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