Roger windschell :
I listen to each and every post. I am a 49yo American made white man. as magnificent as his words are, for me these lessons are very bittersweet. I was raised by old school Irish Catholics, but my father wasn't super religious. he is a Vietnam veteran, and a biker. I was raised to just believe in Jesus, like so many others in my peer group. I grew up poor in a poor black neighborhood, so my trials and tribulations were many. I'm not saying I was an atheist, but never until late in my adulthood did i ever think about morality, nobility, or anything religious. thankfully I've always been perceptive to all cultures of life. even as a child I was always fascinated with other worldly cultures, especially Islam and Muslim people's, also African people's from one end of Africa to another. that being said, when I listen to these lectures, I often feel as the enemy. although I have been studying the Koran, and learning basic Arabic language, I feel as if im blind and to old for anything I obtain to actually call be able to say I am ☪️🕌 Muslim, because in the eyes of a well studied Muslim man, I am but a lost, poorly informed, muttmerican. this lecture honestly hit me in a negative way as I have pure hatred for jews, being im a gentile. and I have not a clue how that would sit with allah,,,probobly not at all. this is why its sometimes bittersweet, because when I listen to these lectures, even though I take away an amazing amount of knowledge, I also can see the parts of me that are described as being American and a bad person. I have worked hard, and always will, Insha'Allah, work hard on morality until its my time to leave this place. I just hope my shortcomings and downfalls will not outshine the great that is who I am today. sorry for such a long post.
2026-11-14 23:25:16