I’ve done so much more than I ever thought I would… Especially at my age. When I think of my accomplishments it’s hard for me to not first think about how far I’ve come mentally. Truth be told it’s hard, I feel like I’m behind a lot of days because of the differences I hold from other people in their 20’s that seem to be fearless. I never thought I’d be able to drive without blacking out, I never thought I’d gain the energy for the gym again, I never thought I’d be able to function in a crowded restaurant, but I’m telling you THE LORD HAS PREVAILED. Rainbows and ponies is far from how my mental health has looked over the years and currently (contrary to a lot of my followers beliefs) SHOCKINGLY enough, news flash… depression and anxiety can hit the young, gym going, dirty blonde girl who seems to have it all together. I’ve had it for as long as I can remember mainly. It’s a chemical imbalance of the brain just like how people can have physical illnesses, hormone imbalances, and even a broken bone. It’s simply something out of place or not working properly. The last time I was out of town (4 hours from home), I puked and had the shakes. Last time I ate in a specifically colored dimmed lighting restaurant I had a hot flash and hyperventilated. I’ve thrown up on not one date but 3 dates in my life. I used to gag on my way to school cause I didn’t want to go. I have feared the unknown and feared all things health wise for a very long time. In the midst of all of the tiny bits of my struggles and story I hold fast on these things… The Lord is my strength. The Lord holds me with his right hand. I would not be here if it wasn’t for him and my phenomenal family in my corner. My story is far from over. I am doing so much better than I think I am. I’ve overcome so much more than I think I have. I am loved by an almighty king. I am blessed beyond measure. Philippians 4:7 “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” #anxiety #overcoming #faith #truth #fy - @madisonmurphy162