Michelle :
Oh but we’re not even that, we’re friends and roommates and we cuddle and it’s just so much more intimate than that, hands trace spine and lock in mine when we sleep. we don’t kiss, but one time we were laying face to face and he thought I was going to and didn’t do anything about it, I wish I had. We can’t keep eye contact and when we do it feels strange like I should look away before they see something I don’t want them to, my favorite part of the day is them coming home to hang out and it kills me when they go to bed and worse when I hear the door shut, I feel like they feel something too but I know it isn’t to the same capacity as me. I tried talking to someone else so as to move on but I just couldn’t. The first time we ever met was to see if we got along to be roommates and we ended up talking for 14 hours straight, when we had a couple drinks, he said his favorite moments between us is after hanging out with other friends and then enjoying the moments we escape the group and it’s just us. I have written and tried to get the crush out, and I think if he did feel something he’s moving on from it. We had to stop cuddling bc “all the people” he talked to about it said it wasn’t a good idea to get involved and these things felt too intimate to him. A couple days ago I asked if we could cuddle and he said that he’d been resisting asking me everyday, and I can’t tell where we’re flirting or having friendly banter. I am trying my best not to tell him how I feel so he doesn’t feel uncomfortable in his own home, and I think he might have thought that way too, I also don’t want to lose him as a person because he’s such a beautiful person, so witty, so funny, infectious without realizing he comes across that way. He is also just BEAUTIFUL i think he’s one of the prettiest people I know and he just wouldn’t believe me which is endearing but our insecurity together kinda pushes us to strive for more, I’m so fucked
2026-07-23 17:46:58